Tuesday, May 19, 2009

The Loss of an Angel

As I sit here deciding what to say, my heart just wants to cry out. Last Thursday, I began having symptoms of a possible miscarriage. I frantically drove to the doctor where they said everything looked fine, however by Sunday things had began to get much worse. Josh and my parents rushed me to the ER where I found out the fate of my unborn child. When the doctor delivered the news my heart immediately broke. How could this happen? Why did this happen to me? What have I done to deserve this? These were all questions that ran through my mind. Words cannot express exactly how I truly feel. This is an experience that I know I will grow from with the help of the Lord. For some reason that I don't know, God chose to take this child to be with Him. I have to remember that God knows what is best and sees the big picture. Family and friends have shown so much love. Josh has been absolutely amazing through this whole ordeal. I am truly the luckiest woman to have such a wonderful husband. Knowing that the next couple of weeks and probably months will be a struggle, I ask that you pray for Josh and I as we go through this difficult time.


14 comments:

Jaime said...

oh sweetie, I'm so sorry. I'll be praying for you guys... let me know if there is anything I can do.

Mrs. Bell said...

Girl,,, I dont even know what to say, besides take this time to spend with josh and god...

He will help you thru this,, praying for yall!

Mrs. Hinson said...

You know I'm praying...

Love you.

~Andrea~ said...

Kristen..I know words can't do much, but I know prayer can. Praying hard for you and Josh...

Jenn said...

Kristen,
Jeff and I are so sorry for you and Josh. Nothing anyone can say will make it better. Please know that we are lifting you all up in our prayers. The two of you will be blessed by God's perfect provision.
Jennifer and Jeff Walker

The Libby's said...

I know exactly what you are going through and I am here if you need me!

Suzanne said...

I found your blog through Abbi's and I just wanted to let you know that we are sorry for your loss. Brad and I both will be praying for you and Josh. Take care and know that we are thinking of you.

Suzanne and Brad Miller

Kristy Starling said...

Awww girl I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I have been there and understand the pain you must be feeling. Your strong faith will be an asset over the next couple months. I will be praying for you.

Kerri said...

So sorry...Praying for you:-)

monica said...

Kristen, you have a big heart and your work gals love you dearly. God has the most perfect plans for our lives, even when we don't understand them. Please know that I pray for you and Josh daily and feel so blessed to have your friendship!

The Pickett's said...

Oh, Sissy! My heart just breaks for you and Josh. Sometimes our worst nightmares come true, but as you already know, our loving Father takes these awful times and uses them to draw us closer to Him. We have been praying for you since we heard the news. We love you and will continue to pray for ya'll!

Abbi said...

Kristen, i'm so sorry! you and josh both will be in our prayers!!

Hollie said...

praying for ya'll...

Kari said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I have dealt with that heartbreak myself, 3 times. I will be praying for you and for Josh.